Putting Insecurities in the Back Seat…

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Remember when I started this blog and I was anonymous?

So many of you knew every detail of my life and didn’t know what I looked like. I even had a twitter troll accuse me of not really being plus size because I didn’t show photos. A few bloggers had to vouch for me by tweeting that they had met me and I was indeed a plus size woman.

Many people found it odd that I didn’t post my photos, but being anonymous was a huge security blanket knitted out of fear. I felt like I could never openly discuss my weight AND have my picture attached to my inner most thoughts and insecurities.

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But over time something interesting happened. Talking about my insecurities openly with you girls gave my insecurities less power. I faced them head on and realized that I was giving my body image issues a front seat as I navigated through life. As I slowly pushed my insecurities to the back seat (and some to the trunk) they didn’t rule my life anymore and my life became more full of lovely people and experiences.

Those of you who read this blog have been instrumental in making me more comfortable in my own skin. I still have a lot of growing to do, but when I came across this YouTube video from January I had to laugh 1.) because my friends are funny and 2.) because two years ago I would have NEVER even made a video like this. Its a silly, fun video, not too deep but its a huge confidence accomplishment for me that I even made it.

Making YouTube videos… sharing outfit photos… not covering my arms… asking Robert if he liked me… these are all things I didn’t think I could/would ever do, but as I grow up I’m realizing that life is much more fun when I stop holding myself back with my fears and insecurities.

Do you ever have little things in your life that might seem mundane to someone else, but you know they are huge accomplishments for you?

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  • vanessa jackson

    First congrats for growing out of your insecurities. I’m sure you’ve encouraged LOTS of folks along the way. My one peeve is public speaking and I don’t think it has anything to do with my weight. I’ve gotten better since I started speaking monthly at church but I dread any other types of public speaking. I know to pray now and I got to definitely trust God to help me when I do. I was a bit more reserved in my younger days but i think I’m a lot bolder now but I relate it to age and being comfortable with me and not caring (in a sense) what others opinions of me are because I KNOW who and whose I am. Great blog post.

    • thebiggirlblog

      Good for you taking baby steps. I have a friend who was scared to sing and now she’s a worship leader in her church. Not all insecurities are weight related, but the cool part is that as we tackle one insecurity, the others seem a bit more manageable too! xoxo

  • vanessa jackson

    First congrats for growing out of your insecurities. I’m sure you’ve encouraged LOTS of folks along the way. My one peeve is public speaking and I don’t think it has anything to do with my weight. I’ve gotten better since I started speaking monthly at church but I dread any other types of public speaking. I know to pray now and I got to definitely trust God to help me when I do. I was a bit more reserved in my younger days but i think I’m a lot bolder now but I relate it to age and being comfortable with me and not caring (in a sense) what others opinions of me are because I KNOW who and whose I am. Great blog post.

    • thebiggirlblog

      Good for you taking baby steps. I have a friend who was scared to sing and now she’s a worship leader in her church. Not all insecurities are weight related, but the cool part is that as we tackle one insecurity, the others seem a bit more manageable too! xoxo

  • KC @ G-Free Foodie

    Adore this. Adore you. Conquer your fears, and conquer the world.

    • thebiggirlblog

      “Conquer your fears, and conquer the world”…. LOVE THIS! <3

  • KC @ G-Free Foodie

    Adore this. Adore you. Conquer your fears, and conquer the world.

    • thebiggirlblog

      “Conquer your fears, and conquer the world”…. LOVE THIS! <3

  • Trina O’Connor

    Love your blog!! Being a plus size fabulous woman my self….this forum that you provide is very uplifting for all the fabulous plus size queens…Keep walking strong and tall blessings on you and every endeavor.

    • thebiggirlblog

      You’re so sweet, thank you Trina! xoxo

  • Trina O’Connor

    Love your blog!! Being a plus size fabulous woman my self….this forum that you provide is very uplifting for all the fabulous plus size queens…Keep walking strong and tall blessings on you and every endeavor.

    • thebiggirlblog

      You’re so sweet, thank you Trina! xoxo

  • Delilah D

    I absolutely love your Blog! So inspirational to us plus size gals
    http://www.pumpsandstudz.blogspot.com

  • Delilah D

    I absolutely love your Blog! So inspirational to us plus size gals
    http://www.pumpsandstudz.blogspot.com

  • neka

    I want you to know that you inspire me! Since finding your blog I have been able to find my inner goddess. I no longer fill the need to fit into a certain size to be considered beautiful. I buy clothes that show off my curves rather than hide them. So thank you !

    • thebiggirlblog

      ***BIG HUGS***

  • neka

    I want you to know that you inspire me! Since finding your blog I have been able to find my inner goddess. I no longer fill the need to fit into a certain size to be considered beautiful. I buy clothes that show off my curves rather than hide them. So thank you !

    • thebiggirlblog

      ***BIG HUGS***

  • geri

    you know what, i’m not exactly plus size but i have been on the bigger side my whole life and not only that i have just never been one of the, “pretty girls” ya know? i’ve always been kinda on the outside of everything and i constantly think…will i ever find love? will i ever be able to be loved for who/what i am…not really pretty enough for someone to ever want…but your blog has given me a burst of confidence and the idea that if i present myself in a gorgeous way that you do…and if i love all my flaws..that possibly some great guy will, too. so thanks! and God bless you.

  • geri

    you know what, i’m not exactly plus size but i have been on the bigger side my whole life and not only that i have just never been one of the, “pretty girls” ya know? i’ve always been kinda on the outside of everything and i constantly think…will i ever find love? will i ever be able to be loved for who/what i am…not really pretty enough for someone to ever want…but your blog has given me a burst of confidence and the idea that if i present myself in a gorgeous way that you do…and if i love all my flaws..that possibly some great guy will, too. so thanks! and God bless you.