Giveaway for TBGB Facebook Fans!


The Big Girl Blog is on facebook!

To celebrate, I am giving away some giftcards to my new obsession, eShakti, the custom clothing store I told you about in an earlier post.

“Fan” TBGB on facebook and you’re automatically entered to win one of the eShakti giftcards.

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Fashion Emergency: What Should I Wear to The Superbowl?


Hey Cece,

I just started reading your blog recently. I noticed you give advice to us PSP’s and I wanted to ask your advice on this… I am headed to the Super Bowl in less than 2 weeks and I’m the only girl in my family bigger than a size 6…I’m a 16! I want to wear something fun to the Super Bowl (and after parties) without going over the top. Any great outfit ideas for when you know you’re going to be pictures with skinnies?!

Thanks girl.


Hey B,

First of all, congrats on your Superbowl trip… how fun!

I love clothes and fashion but I don’t talk about it too much on TBGB. (I try to leave those things to the professional plus size fashion bloggers) On the other hand, I do love a challenge, so I’ll take a stab at your question.

When it comes to sporting events, nothing is hotter than mixing masculine and super feminine. So if it were me, here’s the look I’d create:

I would take the T-Shirt of whichever team I’m rooting for and cut it into something sexy that shows my assets. Perhaps a halter top? I’ve converted Tshirts into halters a couple of times and its super fun and always a conversation piece. You can use rhinestones or sequins to embellish the logo etc.

If you’re scared or don’t know where to start, head to Borders and pick up 99 ways to cut, sew & trim your Tshirt


Of course you’re going to be outside, so I would get a cute cardigan to go over the Tshirt.

Then I would either do something relaxed like a denim skirt, tights and boots. OR I would grab a hot pair of jeans. (I’m in love with my new Source of Wisdom jeans that I picked up from Torrid).

Of course, flawless make-up and accessories are a must. Sweep your hair into a casual pony tail and… Voila! you have a one-of-a-kind look that shows your team spirit and femininity.

Hopefully that helps!


P.S. I saw a photo of you on your blog and you have NO REASON to worry about being in pictures with “skinnies” lol you’re super cute and I hope you send me a photo of whatever you decide to wear.


Curvy Conversations: He’s Not Looking For Anything Serious


Hey CeCe,

I am a PSP and I need some advice. I finally got the courage to tell my childhood friend who I’ve known since I was four (I’m 25 now) that I have strong feelings for him. To my dismay, he told me that he did not like me “in that way” but he hoped things wouldn’t change between us. He also said that he didn’t want to be in a serious relationship and that he was at a point in his life where he was tired of playing games with women’s hearts and their emotions. He claimed he wanted to be able to “do him” without hurting anyone and that he would never want to hurt me.

Ever since I told him I feel awkward around him and in the back of my mind I feel like he doesn’t “like me in that way” because of my size. Now granted he constantly tells me I am beautiful and compliments me. Our friendship is so complicated because he liked me when we were younger and I was afraid of taking it there because of my insecurities.

I am the one he calls when he is upset and needs to vent, when something exciting happens, or just to have lighthearted conversations which can go on for hours. When I tried to distance myself from him he would get angry then say that I was acting differently. As if that wasn’t bad enough he now has a skinny girlfriend that is full of drama and is extremely jealous. Since the beginning of the relationship he has been calling me complaining about her and broken up with her several times because of her crazy ways but says that he loves her (not in love) and feels sorry for her so he stays. I try my best to give him a objective opinion but sometimes it is hard. I just found out that she does not like me because of his and my close relationship but she pretends that she does which pisses me off but I continue to tolerate her because of him.

Everybody around us says we act like “boyfriend and girlfriend” but I don’t think so I am just friendly, you know making the best out of the situation at hand. One night at a party we both attended when I saw him he smiled and said you are the prettiest girl in here tonight and the whole night he was staring at me and complimenting me. (Oh and his girlfriend was also in attendance at the party:-o) It is so funny because whenever a guy express interest in me or I mention a guy he starts to act differently towards me.

I want to just cease communication so I can heal. He calls me his “favorite girl” and says that I am one of the most important women in his life and one of the few people that he can really trust which makes it even harder to distance myself from him. I love him but I want to get off of this emotional roller coaster I am on.

So should I cut him off completely so I can heal? or should I take one for the team and be miserable?

Ms. I just want it to be over

P.S. I also have to tell you that I absolutely xoxo your blog!:)

Dear Ms. I Just Want It To Be Over,

Your letter actually contains all the answers you’re looking for. Lets go through it and see what advice you’ve given yourself:

He also said that he didn’t want to be in a serious relationship and that he was at a point in his life where he was tired of playing games with women’s hearts and their emotions. When a guy tells you that he doesn’t want to be in a relationship, what he really means is that He doesnt want to be in a relationship…

2.)right now
3.)with you

Either way, we have to listen and respect that. Obviously its hard for you because there was a time when he was ready to be with you and you let your insecurities get in the way, but if he’s saying he doesn’t want to play with women’s hearts, maybe he knows something about himself right now that you don’t. Maybe he’s protecting you from something… it doesnt matter, you can’t change his mind.

Ever since I told him I feel awkward around him and in the back of my mind I feel like he doesn’t “like me in that way” because of my size. Now granted he constantly tells me I am beautiful and compliments me. Then its not your size, he obviously finds you attractive (he has for a while).

It is so funny because whenever a guy express interest in me or I mention a guy he starts to act differently towards me….He calls me his “favorite girl” and says that I am one of the most important women in his life and one of the few people that he can really trust which makes it even harder to distance myself from him. This guy knows how to keep you close, but he doesn’t want you too close to him or any other guys. Sounds like he wants to “have his cake and eat it too” and that’s never cool.

A friend once said to me “don’t let a man sit in a seat that may be meant for someone else”. If you’re anything like me, When you get into these half-relationships (p.s. I’m swearing all of mine off for 2010), you start giving them priority seating in your life. This is making it hard for any guy who’s standing in the wings, waiting to be with you. And its not like you have priority seating in his life. He’s given his #1 seat to some dramatic girl that he “feels sorry for”.

I want to get off of this emotional roller coaster I am on. So should I cut him off completely so I can heal? or should I take one for the team and be miserable? Its clear that you’re a great girl (why else would he work so hard to keep you around?) but at some point you have to decide what you’re worth. Why would you stay in a friendship that makes you miserable? He’s allegedly staying with his girlfriend out of guilt and now it seems he’s guilted you into being his “half-girlfriend”. You say you want to get off the emotional roller coaster and I think that’s a great idea.

You were honest enough to say that in order for you to heal, you need to “cut him off completely”… if that’s what it takes, I say get out the scissors.


P.S. Reading this letter made me think about a lot of things in my own life, so I hope I was able to answer with clarity. TBGB Readers, do you have anything to add? Is there anything I missed?


What I Did on My Christmas Vacation (Reality Check)


I woke up slightly disoriented, but after a few minutes I realized that I had fallen asleep fully clothed and was using Kevin as a pillow. This was our last night together before I flew back. We’d packed our evening full of plans that included miniature golf and hanging out with his friends. At the end of it all, we’d come back to his apartment and apparently we both passed out while watching a movie. I tried not to move as I felt myself rise and fall slightly with his breathing.

I looked at the clock on his cable box. It was 2:15am and I needed to get home asap. My traditional parents would not be happy with me spending the night at a boys apartment. On the other hand, I knew that I wouldn’t have time to see Kevin again before I flew back to New York. Even though it was time for me to go, I stayed put.

When I booked my flight home for Christmas, I never would have imagined that all of this would happen. A two week dating whirlwind had been the breath of fresh air I needed after everything that happened (or didn’t happen) in 2009. As much as I wanted to make this experience the barometer by which I measured dating from now on, I had to be careful. Maybe this relationship unfolded so quickly and easily because of the time constraints and the distance. No matter what our feelings were for each other in the past, Kevin and I both knew going into things that there was an expiration date on our time together.

If Kevin lived in New York would he have been so direct? If I lived in California would I have made myself so available?

Who knows… and honestly, who cares? Being curled up with Kevin at 2:15am felt amazing. I kissed Kevin until he woke up. “I gotta go,” I said.

“Don’t, you should stay,” he said groggily.

I tried to get up, but he grabbed my hips and pulled me back. I let him hold me for a few more minutes. It was so nice.

“This is so nice,” he said.

I knew that if I didn’t get up at that moment, I would never leave, so I pulled myself together and let Kevin walk me to my car. I wanted to ask if we’d keep in touch, or how Kevin wanted to handle things but I didn’t. Ruining the moment with logistics just seemed silly. Even if Kevin and I never spoke again, I had a brand new perspective on relationships and what I deserved thanks to him, and that was more than enough.

We said goodbye as if neither of us realized I would be across the country in 48 hours. The only thing that gave us away was our final hug, which was kind of long. Then I think I said something like “see you later” before getting into my car and driving off.

When I pulled into my parents driveway I reached into my purse to check my messages and take my phone off of silent mode. I had two text messages. One was from my parents reminding me to set the alarm system when I got home. The other was from Robert:

Forget the California sunshine and come back to New York….


A Big Girl Rant: Why Do Big Girls Overcompensate?


You might get mad at me for this one, but here goes….

I’ve been noticing a trend among the big girls that I see in New York City and its not good. Whether I’m on 125th, in Soho or navigating the sea of tourists on 34th street; lately, if I’ve seen a big girl her style catches my eye (and not in a good way).

These days when I see a group of girls, the big girl is the one who’s outfit is over the top. The abundance of piercings, extreme extensions, crazy hair dye, unflattering leggings in awful colors, offensive cleavage, color contacts… etc. is mind boggling!

Just so we’re clear, when it comes to this issue, I’m not sitting on my high-fashion-horse looking down. I’ve been that girl. I’ve died my hair, pierced my nose and while I love my boobies, I’m sure I’ve been a little over zealous in sharing them with the world. But ultimately, I realized that I was doing instant changes to my looks and ignoring the one change that I actually needed to spend time on, my weight.

I was in a bar bathroom about a year ago and there was an advertisement for a local gym next to the mirror. It said “Putting on Lipstick Wont Make You Thinner!” So many PSP’s are attempting to use external things to distract from their weight and it doesn’t work!

That piercing wont make you thinner!
Having hair extensions wont make you thinner!
Changing your eyes from brown to blue wont. make. you. thinner!

For the record, I think you can be fat and fabulous (duh!), you can be fat and fashionable (double duh). I’m talking to those of us who’ve become fat fashion victims. It’s like, instead of embracing trends and personal style we’re being overtaken by these things. Its an easy trap to fall into because it’s instant gratification. Hearing “you look cute today” feels good, especially if we feel like our weight keeps people from seeing us a certain way… but lets keep it all in perspective.

Because at the end of the day when we take out our piercings, fake hair and contacts… if we don’t feel comfortable in our own skin– it doesn’t matter.


What I Did on My Christmas Vacation (Part Three)


Okay, I think I’m about to show how much of a nerd I am, but here goes…. Have any of you ever seen “The Mirror Has Two Faces” starring Barbara Streisand? I feel like any PSP on a weight loss journey should watch this movie at least once. Barbara plays this doubty woman who decides to change her look, lose weight etc. and once she gets all hot, the guy she’s been in love with FOREVER (played by Pierce Brosnan… ♥!) finally makes a move on her. While he has her on the couch, kissing her he says something like, “I think I was always in love with you, I just didn’t know it.” and then Barbara has this epiphany and basically realizes that if it took her losing weight, changing her hair and putting on makeup for this guy to fall for her… maybe he’s not the guy she wants.

Yeah. It’s amazing.

So there I was, curled up on the couch with Kevin having my own Mirror Has Two Faces moment. “This isn’t how I imagined it would be when we were in the eighth grade,” Kevin said in between kisses.

I felt my stomach tense up a little. “Is it better…? or wo–”

“No, no! This is way better,” he chimed in. “Back then I thought maybe we would hold hands or something.”

We laughed.

Growing up, I was taught by Jenny Jones, Ricky Lake and all those other talk shows that I was supposed to lose weight and then flaunt my new look to the guys from my past who weren’t interested in me before. Then those men would suddenly become attracted to me we’d live happily ever after, The End.

When I watched “The Mirror Has Two Faces” for the first time, I wondered if I could be like Barbara and walk away from the ultimate fantasy come true. But being on the couch having a high school style make out session with Kevin, I realized I didn’t have to, because… I hadn’t lost the weight! If anything I’ve gained weight since Junior High (as I’m sure most people have). Knowing that Kevin liked me as a chubby preteen and that he still liked me as a twentysomething PSP made the whole thing very sweet and comfortable.

It was close to 3am when I reluctantly untangled myself from Kevin and got up from the couch to head home. Kevin walked me to my car. “Do you want to play miniature golf sometime this week?” he said.

“Sure, that sounds fun.” I hugged him and got into my car. I was about halfway back to my parents house when Kevin sent me a text message:

Wow, I guess childhood dreams do come true….

He’s so cute!